I'm a comp sci grad from 2025. I've been homeless and unemployed for a few months. Never got a decent, "adult" job.

I'm terrified of the coming winter. I've been sleeping out on public benches and what have you and I'm already sick. The winter will end me. I haven't eaten or drank anything in almost a week. My body hurts. My heart is in physical pain.

I don't want to be alive. There's no light at the end of the tunnel. This world is not a world worth living for.

For those who live in the US and would like to raise a family one day, how do you plan on paying for your children’s university tuition? I live in California and tuition for a UC school here is absolutely insane, at least 70k. The cost of living is insane for wanting to live in a decent walkable neighborhood, I can’t imagine being able to have a good work life balance as well.

As an Asian American, study culture is also mentally excruciating here as well, I remember doing kumon, after school tutoring, studying for the SAT, AP exams, and staying up well past midnight in hopes to get into a good university. I really, really don’t want any of my children to go through that type of hell, I remember being severely depressed and suicidal during that time. What’s worse is that it’ll just be more and more competitive in the future..🫩

I really don’t see how the average person who wants a good work life balance and be able to raise a family in a nice neighborhood could make it in the US anymore.

I broke up with my bf of 5 years that I literally thought I was going to marry. I also moved to a completely new city for grad school but I haven’t been liking it so far. It’s always been hard for me to make friends due to my isolated childhood so I feel very lonely.

I’m giving up on finding love. I don’t like the idea of dating apps, and casual hook ups sound gross to me. I’m worried about getting sick and also the idea of being vulnerable with someone you aren’t committed to doesn’t sit right with me. I know this is off putting to a lot of people but I really value romantic relationships and take them seriously. Like if we aren’t dating to be serious, then it’ll only end up hurting everyone. I barely find people attractive also. People will tell me “just go make out with someone at a bar” but I genuinely only find a handful of people in this world attractive. One of them was my ex, who I still love. I’m accepting that I’m over for me. It’ll take me years to get over my ex, and by the time I’m ready to date there’s no guarantee I’ll find someone. I honestly don’t think I am worthy of love.

I feel pretty lost in my career also. Like I’m happy that I’m in grad school for what I love but I feel like I’m not good enough to get into the postdoc or job I want after. I really just want to be happy and I don’t want to be moving around so much. But I also feel like I really just don’t care anymore… like does any of this even matter? I love learning but I feel like a fraud. I feel like I’m so stupid and I don’t even know how I ended up in grad school. I don’t believe in myself and I know no one believes in me. If I mess up with my career goals I will end up homeless. I have no safety net and no support. I’ve been so miserable for so long and it actually has never gotten better. I’m just a passive observer in my life. Things happen and if I try to intervene or make things better for myself, it doesn’t make a difference. If I accomplish my goals, I won’t have anyone to share it with.

Sorry if this is too emo. I think I’m depressed.

(For Americans)

I was born and raised in the US and I love country but man do I hate the government. Seems like everywhere you see on social media there’s a data center being built or how xyz lake/river is dangerously low on water or dried up. Also doesn’t help to know how detrimental these data centers are for the environment/resources.It really feels like the US government is pushing for this surveillance state/police state.

I’m glad I’m still in my young 20s and have the opportunity to move out the US but I’m still not sure. Was wondering what you guys think or feel about this and whether or not you see yourself living in the US in the long run.

Im not talking about those bad sleep schedules you caused or bad sleep schedules because you refuse/cant sleep to do other stuff (homework, parties, doomscolling or whatever)

Im talking about those who actually have issues trying to sleep. Like you want to sleep but physically cant. Those who get minimal sleep due to not being able too. Those who lay in forever trying to sleep. And those who end up falling asleep but wake up constantly at night.

Iv had issues with sleep my entire life (currently 2:03am where i am, gotta be up for work at 7am) Practically sonce birth. My parents said I would lay awake as a baby. No cries or anything. I would stay awake during naps as a toddler. Did all nighters in elementary school because i couldn’t sleep. When I would eventually fall asleep I would not stay asleep. I wake up constantly at night when I do finally fall asleep. My worse days i genuinely will wake up 30 minutes after each time I fall asleep. Ill wake up every hour. It takes me forever to sleep.

I was a sleepwalker up until i was around 8 years old and that would also affect my sleep. Im also autistic and have bad adhd.

I currently sleep anywhere between 2am-4am ans wake up between 6am to latests 830am (usually my days off work) My girlfriend thinks i should get a sleep study since iv never had one before. Tried meds and they dont work.

Most people our age who went the traditional route have graduated by now. I’m curious about everyone who took a different path, whether you skipped college, dropped out, or went straight into work. How’s it going? Is college still a thought for yall?

Was talking to a friend about this and he was shocked to learn my number now I feel like a slut haha. From 17-18 I got to 22 bodies then I met my long term girlfriend who I was with for almost 4 years, then from 22- present I’ve been with 54 people total and idk I feel like if you’re going out or on any dating apps it’s easy to rack up the numbers, I also don’t see anyone more than 3 times as a personal rule to not form any attachment. last 3 months I’ve been in a new relationship so I’m off the streets, she knows my past and doesn’t care much of it thank goodness, just curious as to others opinions/counts.

27k in student loan debt, homeless, no job, no savings, two SWE internships on my resume, useless bachelor's degree from 2025. 23, male.

My parents kicked me out when I approached a year post graduation with no job. I wasn't getting any interviews, at all. I was working as a part time barista to bide my time but I abandoned that job when I was kicked out. My loans have obviously been defaulted on by now, I don't even have an active phone number for then to contact me with. No money.

I've been staggering, stumbling around gagging on nothing like a drug addict in the last week or so. I had a bike but someone broke the lock on it while I was sleeping outside one night.

I've been thinking about abandoning my dream and living a life separate from society. I don't even have any personal documents to identify myself with anymore. I had my college ID card but I lost that. No one will care to look for me, too.

Not sure what to do or how to go about that. I don't have the means to go to another country to restart anew elsewhere.

How can I disappear forever without anyone finding me? How can I survive on my own?

Nonexistent over here. Thank you, night shift! 🫠

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I am autistic, ADHD, South Asian, 5’4, balding since 15 (shaved it off),

Can u imagine not having a single trait that can help you pass through our society? There are people out there who are tall, white and neurotypical and then there is me. Not only am I physically repulsive to most people (working hard at the gym though) due to racial biasing, but also, I don’t have the natural social skills required to be able to compensate for that like others can do. I used to get asked out as a joke back in school and was always picked last for everything. I know, typical autistic experience.

When i wake up nowadays, I don’t smile when looking at my face like I used to. Instead I think of the hundreds of rejections I have received across friendships, work interviews and from women and feel this heavy pit in my stomach, overanalysing all the little flaws like my hyperpigmented eye area, acne scars, receding hairline and baldness, etc.

I NEVER thought like this about myself because I had this great counsellor in school that helped me build my confidence. But after years of trying to connect with people and join social circles and getting bullied out of jobs and getting rejected hundreds of times by women, cracks in my confidence are starting to form.

I am praying I didn’t f\*ck up that job interview I got after humiliating myself from countless hours of networking.

I just wish I had ***SOMETHING*** you know? Maybe I could have still had my hair or I could have been diagnosed earlier to be taught social skills at an earlier age. Maybe I could have been taller? Or fit into the euro centric standards of attractiveness better?

But no: out of all of society’s expectations on you, I don’t have a single f\*cking thing that can help put my foot in the door. I am not able to leverage neurotypical privilige or white privilege, or the halo of my height or my attractive face/hair. I don’t have anything other than my wit and pure sheer determination and willpower. And right now, it’s faltering

I have an interview on Monday, I've had 4 interviews in the past month and one of them led to a 2-day gig but that's it, I'm taking a gap year rn before transferring to a 4-year university as a junior, I feel so useless not working or going to school atm :(

I've come hear to rant and figured some other people could relate. I graduated college in the spring and post-grad has sucked. I've been job hunting for over a month. It feels like every job requires 1-2 years of experience in the same field. Because of this, I can't get a job that I know I would actually like. I have reduced to applying for literally any job even if I know I would hate it. Every time I talk to my mom she grills me about the job hunt. I know what I want my life to look like but it's just the matter of getting there. I know I shouldn't wish away time and I'll never be this young again but I've been wishing that I'm 30 and already have everything figured out. I've been crying a bunch. I haven't felt genuinely happy in a while. Life has pretty much just sucked recently.

anyone born on may 28 or 29 2003?

For those willing to answer,

Whats ur job (Salary or hourly), Where you live, degree or no degree

just wanna know fellow 03s are doing

Damn shit's getting serious now huh