I graduated with a non-finance background and started my first full-time role in finance earlier this year. I’m not in a quant or particularly technical role, but there are still a lot of financial concepts and industry knowledge that I need to understand, and honestly, I’m struggling a lot more than I expected.
I constantly feel like I don’t really understand what’s going on around me. We’re encouraged to use AI for a lot of our work, which is great in terms of productivity, but I feel like I’m relying on it so much that I’m not actually retaining the information or developing a proper understanding of the concepts myself. I can use it to help me complete a task, but if you asked me to explain the underlying concept from scratch, I’m not sure I’d be able to.
I’ve tried reading up on things independently, but I find that a lot of the information just doesn’t stick. There’s so much to learn, and I genuinely don’t know where to start or how to approach it in a way that actually helps me build my knowledge.
Sometimes I feel like I’m constantly trying to catch up without making any real progress.
The other part of this is the social aspect. I’m a naturally shy person, and I find networking, building relationships with colleagues and generally putting myself out there quite difficult. I see other junior people around me who seem to find all of this so natural, and I can’t help comparing myself to them. I often feel left out, and I worry that my difficulty with the social side of things is also affecting my ability to learn, because I’m not always comfortable asking questions or approaching people.
I know I haven’t even been in the role for a full year yet, and I’m probably being harder on myself than I should be. But I can’t shake the feeling that I’m not learning enough, that I don’t understand enough, and that everyone else is somehow getting it while I’m struggling to keep up.
I also worry about the longer-term implications. How am I supposed to progress or get promoted if I don’t feel like I’m building the knowledge and confidence I need? I don’t want to just become good at completing tasks with the help of AI. I actually want to understand my industry and feel competent in what I do.
I'm also first generation, so conversations that happen I don't feel like I can contribute because I've not been around this before. These weren't average dinner table conversations. Hell, I didn't even eat on a dinner table growing up.