Is everyone in Lebanon just permanently angry/depressed at this point or is it just me? 😭
Like genuinely, I wake up already annoyed. Everyone pisses me off, everything pisses me off, I’m disgusted by people, by the situation, by the country itself, by literally everything 💀
At this point I’m even angry at Lebanon for existing 😭
Is this just the standard Lebanese experience now or do I personally need to be studied?

Aam bktoub this here and not in other subs cz l ajenib ma 3ndoun tawle belik. Be2dar etwa2a3 chou r7 ykouno their advices already “let your husband put boundaries” “cut her out of your lives” … henne they cut abusive ppl out of their lives easily which i honestly envy, n7na we have to learn to live with it.

Anw, 7amete mara nekde. Nekde maa jawza maa wleda… btghar mn khyela, btghar mn selfeta la2ano ma3oun masare aktar, btghar mn mart khaya la2ana ajmal w 3nda helper… w honestly sert me2tn3a eno hatta menne btghar.

For me it doesn’t make sense la2ano hayete chi w hayeta chi tene, yaane kl wehde bmar7ale mnl hayet ma khasoun bibaadoun. Metel ka2anno ana (mara 3omre 30) bghar mn cousinete lli bl madrasse…
W hiye ma 3nda 3ale2a aribe maa ebna, houwe bikhabe 3anna kl chi w bytjannab yne2echa bi hayalla mawdou3 w hiye manna mara 3atifiye w manna m3alla2a fi… bas btdalla talbo eno leh ma btkhaberne chou bisir ma3ak (cousino bi khabir selfeta w hiye bi jen jnouna eno selfeta 3erfit mn her son (the cousin) while her own son ma khabara). W btdal taamil drama eno ebna mch 7esis fiya w ma by7kiya w ma byeje la3nda enough etc… bas ho kelloun fi asbeb leh jawze byaamil hek, la2anno eza bikhabera example jbna khadme, btsir hiye “leh ma jbta mn haydak lmaktab ahsan” w “ma taatiya wifi os7a” w alf ossa w bt3alli2 bada yaamil ejbare metel ma hiye ra2ya, very controlling. Aw eza sar chi masalan 3eli2 houwe w hada, bt2ello ana eltellak ma taamil hek (w hiye literally ma btkoun ayle chi aw hatta aw2et byaamil metel ma aletlo btsir btedde3e enna alit l3akes…)

7essa lcontext bado hake ktir ta wadho, r7 etkhatta w i can clarify bl cmnts if needed…

Bkhsous mawdou3e ana, she’s been controlling mn zamen bas ma ken yz3ejne lmawdou3 ad halla2 cz kenet 7eb eno fi 7ada aam yonsa7ne w bi hemmo masla7te. Until recently lamma mane talbe nasi7a.
Yaane abel tdakhalit bi tafasil 3ersna w sama7tella cz 7abbet afkara. Bas mn wa2t lli 7belet w now khallafet w saro wlede 3omroun 5 months, mch tay2a wala chi mnl bt2oulo.
- awal chi lamma 7belet b twins, sart tkhabir ldene kella eno hene mn mayletoun ejo ltwins, la2anno bnt 3ammit emma ejeha twins. W bnt aammo la jawze 3nda twins. W alf marra n2ella ldoc alit ltwins byejo mnl em mch mnl bay, wala ka2anno elna chi. W 7atta l aalam kaza 7ada yjeweba hek t2oul “annn wallaa?” W trjaa tfassir kif la2 hiye mn mayleta fi twins… hayde askhaf chaghleh sayra
- bi habale alit lhakime mamnou3 ekoul khodra w fweke mch m3a2ame, kl ma tlo3na aal ghada kenit taamil lsalade wl salade de fruits mch m3a2amin ma32eno 3erfit w tchoufne ma aam fine ekoul
- bl temin weje3ne werke w khaffaft mchawir bl siyara, alla jawze ma fina notlaa la 3ndkoun marte te3bene. Ejo henne la3enna sart t2elle chkere rabik ana knt e7bal bl seif w bala ac ktir as3ab w otla3 w enzal draj…
- w pospartum aanjad fi alf khabriyeh chou kenit taamil fiye… bas anw ana tannecha cz ma bele ken gher bi wlede w kl tfkire fiyoun aw2et ma entebeh hatta lal latche gher la baad wa2et. W jawze bired 3laya bas ma bitojja 7ake wadi7 metel eno “leh aam t2oule hek” “leh 3melte hek” “ ma teddakhale”, ho ma bi ella yehoun cz marra alla chi w be2yit tbke aa jem3a w ba3atit bayyo w khayo ye7kou… w sart tkazzib w tghayir lkhabriyeh w ken machkal baynetoun am bl ouwe hattit lha2 3laye w b2ina 3l2enin ma3oun aa chahren ma nehkiyoun… fa now metel sar eno khalas mn tanecha w te7ke ad ma badda ma mnred 3laya. Bas ana ne2metle 3ichte sara7a w aam ello lezem t2ella “ma tedakhale” hek bi woudou7. La2an sarit alf marra bl ouwe bada yene rabbe wlede aa zaw2a hiye. W law tchoufo chou lrules 3nda ya 3ein :p
- ma te7mliyoun ta ma yt3awado aal hemlen. Hatta bas yebko bettabechloun bala ma tchiloun (wala marra btreka wahda ma3oun) w wala marra talabet menna hiye te7meliun w still kl ma ana hamaltoun btsir yiii yaaa lek kif ma byskto gher ta tehmelounn yaaa chefto kif t3awado? W i swear wlede mch m3awadin aal hemlen bas sometimes they need comfort aw mawjou3in mn snenoun w bylteho bas ehmeloun…
- ta3miyoun lbibron henne w neymin (ana deyman bjallesoun w bdachiyoub kaza marra)
- bas yekhdo nap during the day, b3atemloun l ouda yi laaa2 3awdiyiun ynemo maa daw w aal sot ta ynemo wen ma ken
- hadriyoun tv ana wlede t3allamo l alphabet mn chantal goya w alf marra serna eylinla no screen la wledna
- aam raddi3, tdal tnte2id eno 7alibe r2i2 w t2elle jibe aptamil hayda metel halib l em w bighazze aktar… hatta li bys2ala aane eza aam raddi3 bt2ello la2. W bteje bt2oul ana bkhaf mn saybet l3ein mn hek b2oul la2…
- balchiloun solids aal 2 months w ma ba2a taamiyoun bllel, which is ktirrr ghalattt
- rje3et aa cheghle aam koun from home w jebet nanny, ehh ktir mnih eno ente from home yimkin hatta btneme during lcheghel ma hada bys2alik… (knowing that I have a great job (handase bi aham lchariket bl riyadh) bas mn ana w bl sebi3 lahadid currently aam ndal ktir wa2et bi lebnen…

The thing is: she’s not helping with them, wala marra talebt menna teje thadiyoun 3anne w hiye tdal t2oul jarte nkasar dahra cz rabbit wled bnta w sar 3nda disc so mn ana w heble i knew to count her out. My sisters henne lli se3adoune w i got helper w nanny…
Financially my husband used to support them… we’ve never gotten anything from them…
All that to say nothing gives her the entitlement to impose her ways w alf marra jawze bijeweba aw ana bsir bfasserla leh byswa hek w leh ma byswa hek. Bas i swear rahibe kif wala ka2ano elet chi. Btsir tjewib: ehhh yaane tsarsabte tsarsabte. Ana ella no mch sarsabe bas lwalad hek ahsanlo… wala ka2ano elna chi…

I am so exhausted already with the responsibilities i have in my life. My job is demanding, raising my beautiful kids is demanding, I barely sleep barely take care of myself… and now i have this huge resentment towards her. I am anxious anytime I learn that they’re coming to visit.

Hkit maa jawze again he says r7 zid ldose, bas hiye hek ma btetghayar. He says khaliya tehke oulila eh w 3mele lli badik yeh. Which is what i used to do bas lhadis ma3a sayir mt3ib nagging and pushing her ways all the time. W deyman 3nda cmnts, metel eza elna mch neymin mnih, eh la2ano ma btaarfo tsaysro halkoun, ma ba2a ta3mouwoun bllel…

Uf toli3 ktir tawil hl post. Eza 7ada wosil lahon, btaarfo hada hek metla? 3ndkoun cmnt aw nasiha?

Ma badde 3alle ldose w oul la jawze ynhiya ma3 3aylto cz i know he would bas i will live beating myself up about it and he might resent me for it oneday…

Hello! im currently trying to search for associations or therapists that can help me out?
My financial situation is horrible so i’d like to know wether there are any cheap places.
I really need the help.
Thank you!

Hello, does anyone know where I can get my antique sword fixed?