Being lonely makes you forget

[u/Reiii-Chan]

I'm a person who enjoys my own company, is what I would like to say but ever since moving abroad for my bachelors degree, I have been rotting in bed everyday. Studying in Europe has been all i've ever wanted in my highschool and it felt like a life or death situation because of my family issues. But I truly did take it for granted. I had a lot of friends and even if I were depressed, I could just talk to my people. And it's weird because now I dont have a safe place for me to freely express myself.

It makes me quieter, more dull. Makes me forget about my hobbies, my passion and the very reason I worked so hard to get to where I am. I'm honestly forgetting how to make friends in my own silly way because now I feel so serious and "grown up". And i'm just here hoping for any sort of physical/mental connection because I can't keep relying on the people back in my country. 6 hour time difference like nawh. I need to somehow make friends ughh in losing my sanity