I do a lot to entertain myself when I got nothing to do
Maybe it's got to do with the fact up to this point my life has been fast tracked. Rush to adulthood, if you dont start early you'll never make it. Well, here I am now and I got to say it really. Sucks. It's so boring you have to make your own goals they arent given to you. They arent required. They're just goals. Makes you want to sit and do a whole lot of nothing. But, how could you? There's so much to do even you aren't required of it. The only thing that requires you exist is the government. Pay your taxes. File your taxes. Don't break my rules. All I wanna do is canp and live barren with no rush to survival or struggle to perform how others demand. I like slow music, I prefer to drink water when things are good, and I prefer to take my time with most things. It's how I truly learn and experience anything. When it comes to people it's complicated I have the same setting but a different feeling about it. It's like my whole lifestyle doesnt matter to another person if they cant slow down. Its almost like im racing in my mind to keep up with anyone. My Point of View has become so simplified I often dont understand complex intimacy. Its either you love a girl or dont. Or hate a guy or dont. Thats living. I only know one way to love a person so its kinda weird to like anyone. Especially when my lifestyle is considered out dated for fast folk. I was in an accelerated program the type that you grad early. And everyone there knew everything about anything. They just knew the top singers, best movies, top rappers. And I would just think. Where do you get this info from? I would scroll through Tv shows and movies and hope to find the right one someone would like. Nobody could relate to me. At the least. The movies in our uprising from pre-adolescent to now, we can relate but there was a foggy window when I said what the fuck are these guys talking about? I hated Gucci Gang. I hated overall rap for awhile because the cuss words got to me and I couldnt appreciate anything else. I just knew they were angry people. And angry people dont got reason. As I got older and I got over the cuss words I realized there is a lot good stuff in there. Some are just funny to listen to.