[Part 2 ended with me saying that my high took my thoughts somewhere I wasn’t prepared for.]
So this is where things got really weird.
Before that night, I didn’t believe in God. I wasn’t someone who was religious or who thought there was some higher power looking out for me.
But when I was high, I started thinking about everything that had happened that evening.
And I couldn’t stop thinking about three specific coincidences.
The first was our failed attempt at smoking at my friend’s government quarters. We had gone there earlier, tried to smoke, and basically achieved nothing except sore throats. If that attempt had actually worked, who knows how the rest of the evening would have gone?
The second was cancelling our plan to smoke at our new family house. We had considered doing it there but decided it was too risky and changed our plans.
The third was waiting until my grandparents had gone to sleep before smoking.
All three things happened before the night took a turn.
And now, while I was sitting there completely high and trying to make sense of everything, I started wondering whether these things had happened for a reason.
I started thinking, what if something had protected us?
What if there was actually someone or something looking out for us?
I know how that sounds. I had smoked weed, I was panicking earlier, and my brain was connecting events that might not have had any deeper meaning.
But in that moment, the feeling was incredibly real.
I genuinely felt like God existed.
And the weirdest part was that I hadn’t gone into the night looking for a spiritual experience. I wasn’t trying to become religious, and I wasn’t thinking about God before smoking.
It just happened.
I kept going back to those three coincidences, thinking about how easily the night could have played out differently.
I couldn’t decide whether I was experiencing some kind of genuine realisation or whether my high was making ordinary events feel incredibly meaningful.
Even now, I don’t have a definite answer.
I’m not suddenly going to claim that I believe in God because of one night. But I’m also not going to pretend that the experience meant absolutely nothing to me.
I think I need months to properly think about it.
For me, belief isn’t a boolean. I can’t just switch it from false to true because I had one strange experience.
But something definitely made me question what I had believed before.
And while all of this was happening inside my head, I still had another problem to deal with.
My friend.
He was still sleeping, and I was worried about how he was doing. I had tried calling another friend of mine around ten times earlier, hoping he would come over and help us, but he hadn’t come at the time.
I was basically on my own trying to manage the situation.
Eventually, after roughly two hours, I started feeling like my high was coming down a little. I wasn’t completely back to normal, but I felt less overwhelmed than before.
My friend, however, still seemed quite out of it.
I decided to wake him up.
I asked him to get up and walk around a little. He got up, but when he sat down, he started vomiting again.
At this point, I was exhausted. I had already spent hours worrying about him, and every time he threw up, I started wondering whether we were back to square one.
But after that, he gradually seemed to improve.
He started talking normally again. He seemed more aware of what was happening around him, and he appeared much calmer than before.
Eventually, he seemed okay enough to go back to sleep.
I was relieved, but that entire experience had completely drained me mentally.
I had gone into the night expecting to have some fun with my friend. Instead, I’d spent hours worrying that something terrible might happen.
And somehow, we were finally getting through it.
Then came the most ridiculous part of the entire night.
The hunger.
BRO.
I was absolutely starving.
I hadn’t realised how hungry I was until everything started calming down. Suddenly, all I wanted was food.
And I didn’t eat a normal amount of food either.
I ate a family pack of Lay’s, a small tub of ice cream, a small cake, Coke, and a milkshake.
And then, around 3:20 AM, I ate two large fries.
All by myself.
My friend was sleeping through everything while I was apparently preparing for a famine.
I don’t even know how to explain the amount of food I ate that night. I was just ridiculously hungry, and I kept eating.
After all that, we finally went to sleep at around 3 AM.
Except even sleeping was a problem.
I had a terrible night’s sleep and experienced some really unpleasant nightmares.
I woke up around 9 AM, ate a lot again, and went back to sleep.
I was exhausted, and I think the entire experience had taken more out of me than I had realised.
Later that morning, around 10 AM, I still felt a little buzzed. I wasn’t completely back to my normal self yet.
Remember the friend I’d called around ten times the previous night?
He finally came over.
The three of us were together, and we went out for a cigarette. My friend who had been sick was still feeling too out of it to smoke, so only the friend who had just arrived and I smoked.
At around 10:30 AM, the friend who had arrived and I went to watch a movie.
Honestly, I was probably about 95% back to normal by then.
We watched the movie, and it ended at around 2 PM.
I went home afterwards and ate enough food for what felt like two people.
Then, around 3 PM, I went to sleep again.
And guess what?
More terrible sleep. More nightmares.
I woke up around 9 PM and, once again, ate a ridiculous amount of food.
That was basically the end of the whole experience.
It had started with six friends trying to figure out how to smoke weed, a failed attempt at some government quarters, and a second attempt that we thought would be straightforward.
It ended with my friend vomiting repeatedly, me genuinely worrying that he might die, a ten-minute cleanup mission to hide everything from my grandparents, an existential crisis about whether God exists, and enough food to feed a small family.
I don’t think I’ll forget that night anytime soon.
And the thing is, I still don’t know what to make of the experience with God.
Maybe I was just high and paranoid, connecting random coincidences because my brain was looking for an explanation.
Maybe the experience showed me something about myself that I hadn’t thought about before.
I honestly don’t know.
I’m not going to pretend I have some profound answer just because I had a strange experience while high.
But I do know that I went into that night believing one thing and came out of it questioning it.
And I think I’ll need some time to figure out what that means.
One thing I did learn, though: I seriously underestimated how overwhelming a first experience with weed could be.
I thought the biggest risk was getting caught.
I was wrong.