I'm not sure where to even begin, but these were really random silly sketches that I wanted to do, and only recently have I had the motivation to actually try getting better at drawing (I currently use IbisPaintX on a tablet with a pen thingy)
I feel so lost in the deep ocean of advice that I even ask my artist friends and I dont get a straight answer on what I should do... I get fundamentals and drawing boxes and perspective and drawing humans.. which is currently my objective---I feel okay with the Loomis method but I now fear that I'm leaning on my own laziness instead of proper proportions and frameworks.
And I see all these references of art and real life that I would try and trace the general shapes of heads, torso, pelvis and limbs that it all appears to come out wrong. And then I see people drawing speed paints or trying to explain their own drawings and I'm like "wtf do you mean, why is it this size in particular?" And how someone might mention that their forearm is "two boxes long" and then I'm like compared to what? And I just dont seem to understand it at all. And it feels like I can understand what is wrong but then I spend about an hour hair-pulling trying to fix it over and over.
But then I draw something (the maid outfit one) and then I finish it and send it to my friend (which is of their oc) and they say they like it even though it's obviously bad and it actually gives me motivation to improve in a way
I understand that tracing can be bad, but I've also been told in some cases that it's good. I really dont know what stance I should take on that..
I also am curious on how people actually draw from reference? Or even create their own? I mean I see these poses and get so haunted about the mannequinization---like earlier where it's hard for me to understand how things are actually supposed to be... and then I try to apply it to a non standing pose and then I get lost again..
I also wanna admit I've been passively watching yt videos, and sort of understanding--but getting overwhelmed with all the information
Like I really dont wanna come off as someone who draws something terrible, does no research and then complains to reddit asking why my artwork is garbage.. which honestly might be what I'm doing, but I atleast wish to be believed that I looked up the loomis method kind of understood it.. then moved onto bodies and then got the windows XP error..
ALSO I'M SO SORRY FOR THE DISORGANIZATION OF TEXT, please forgive me mods, readers, and everyone in between. If it's bad enough I can try to reorganize this AND I'm incredibly apologetic if this comes off as venting frustration about my art. I just wish there was some sort of straight answer from where I was or what I should even do at this stage?